Starting a New Life

2010-10-07T12:14:00.003+08:00

Been soo soo long.....

a few months since i even log on to my blog.

this is the time i have to learn to let go....of IT

demodding everything i built...

i seen it grow from a pony to horse.

now i go see it get stripped.

well...no choice, got to think of the future.

got to reduce all spendings now and save up whatever i can from my already little pay.

lets see how far i can go with it.

next....what should i welcome?

what shall be the new house for all my little eeyores????

"pa pa, we houseless now, when will our new house come???"

thats what bei told them to ask me... lol

we shall wait and see....

2009-06-05T20:38:00.004+08:00

Lets do a comparison.....

Of this.....

and this...!!!

ok, i got to say, position also wrong

2009-06-05T10:25:00.006+08:00

Do i look like a TARGET BOARD??

Why do people always shoot/throw/stab arrows at me?

been adding on work load before i can have the time to finish them off

Under paid and overworking.....

u call this PRIDE??
P: people
R: rest
I: i
D: do
E: extra
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relationship haven been smooth either
(at least i don wish to think about it any more now)

that group of guys,

Simply hate them all....

(maybe i should just don care and let them be...)

2009-05-28T12:11:00.002+08:00

Things changed.

Now, i no longer know what she is doing, where she goes, who she going out with.

Maybe having no time for her is a major part of this.

Someone else has all the time in the world for her?

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So god-damn-painful

2009-05-24T18:20:00.004+08:00

Lets share my work so far.
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Monday
- report back to camp
- nobody around
- thus boss ask me to go home and go back on wed

wednesday
- report back to camp...again
- do nothing for whole day
- went home cos no bunk

Thursday
- told which company im going
- also told im doing duty the next day liao
**WTH

Friday
- took over BDO duties
- While still taking over, i got to conduct IPPT

Saturaday
- hand over duties and went home

Sunday
- take over duties AGAIN
- And here i am writing this post.

Monday
- before hand over duties, i got to conduct another IPPT

OMG.

what to say, "welcome back to the force, albert!"

2009-05-24T18:09:00.004+08:00

couldnt believe she actually went genting with him. (even though is 4 for them)

she din ask me if she could go, she just inform me she is going.

couldnt do much to stop her. (or should i say i din even stop her)

anyway, she already had the intention of going with them quite some time back le.
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remember she told me, going oversea with a guy is able to help build up their relationship.
(thats how we grew ours back then)
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ask yourself, which guy can take all these blows?
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i really dunno what i should do already.
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cant limit her freedom
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cant spent alot of time with her
(back in service now full time)
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she wanted a graduation trip oversea, but if i don go work, how to bring her oversea?
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but now im working, but she went oversea with other people le.
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as a matter of fact, im in camp doing my BDO duty while she is in genting.
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just what am i now?
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im like dunno when she is going say its not working anymore again.

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maybe i should just concentrate on my work now.....

2009-05-14T21:25:00.003+08:00

oh ya, got to wish bon voyage to the gf as she intending to go Genting or australia.

With who?

Everyone else except the bf, as he din even know .

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bf has been slowly left out in everything she is involved with......

His heart broke so many times without her realising.....

2009-05-14T15:15:00.006+08:00

All i wanted was a steady relationship. dint happen.

can u imagine the pain to have to imagine what your gf will be doing outside with her FRIENDs when the bf is going back to camp?

Situation 1: gf will complaint the bf got no time for her
Situation 2: gf lagi happy, got more time to go out with her FRIENDs

Imagine if the guy knew that his gf has been going out with FRIENDs but still he kept his cool to prevent fight, hoping its going to be jus this time. but things doesnt look this way.

last time, the bf are allowed to meet up and interact with her friends, but now, he cant even join them. (while another guy can) - can u feel how he will feel?

imagine all the bf wanted to do was to ensure someone will send his gf home or to places, he was taken as stalking.

Bottomline, times diff, last time everything was sweet, now, everything he did was wrong.

GF said its not bcos of the guy, its the 2 of them. BF tried to do something, but realised there is not going to be any diff bcos of that guy.

Nobody understand how the GF is thinking but herself. whether or not whatever u said to the bf is true or not, only her mind will know.

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feeling sad, down and distracted for the BF

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give him this song to describe his feelings (Side links)

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那一扇车门关出我们的裂痕一声就震断了回头的路程爱无法均分以后就留给你们也许用伤害结束爱才更动人容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍既然爱不能恒温祝福就给你下一个人你是好人也是个坏人对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔不能放任所以放了这点痛我还能忍我是好人也是个坏人分得够狠你才有借口转身宁愿爱一点不剩也不忍看恋人爱成路人容忍的人其实并不笨只是宁可对自己残忍既然爱不能恒温祝福就给你下一个人你是好人也是个坏人对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔不能放任所以放了这点痛我还能忍我是好人也是个坏人分得够狠你才有借口转身宁愿爱一点不剩也不忍看恋人爱成路人三个人从不对等总有个人必须牺牲那永恒就等他带你完成你是好人也是个坏人对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔不能放任所以放了这点痛我还能忍我是好人也是个坏人分得够狠你才有借口转身宁愿爱一点不剩也不忍看恋人爱成路人宁愿爱一点不剩也不忍看恋人爱成路人

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bunny's bf

2008-12-01T12:07:00.003+08:00

Realised i haven been posting for the past dunno-how-many-u-count-yourself days.

a couple of things happened these months.

Finally, Pk and Jr exchanged rings. So glad for them. made me feel that i should tie the knot soon too.

radiator spolit, headlight spolit, IU spolit, laptop spolit, etc. (just went is all these gonna stop?)

decided not to go back camp this holiday due to the screwed up FYP experiments.
As a result, i am left with no income.
Bei got to suffer with me .... again.... sorry....

good thing she is going to Japan for a holiday this week. (Can't be rich in singapore, Go be a rich girl there~!) lolz

When will all these poor days end.......

2008-07-08T16:15:00.010+08:00

HAHAHA~~~~!!!!!

The Not-So-Famous Bukit Batok Blogger is Back!

"A"!

First thing first, i thank all those who appeared at my birthday party!
(Though Im Drank)

Enjoyed myself during that night.

Especially after my Bei Bei bought me my birthday gift......

May i present to u......

Pioneer Head Unit~~!!
Jus Swee only~!

Went to Genting the week before, lost quite abit.

Took this swee swee pic before we go CHIONG.

Okie okie, i know all things i posted are rubbish...

But thats about blogging MAN~!

ITs the LA Style Baby~!

End off this posting with these picS~!

The UltiMate Garfield of The Year~~!!!

Need for Speed Singapore???

Oh Please~~~ Dressing is way out!

Show u what is the real Need For Speed~~!!

2008-03-26T23:41:00.005+08:00

Finally, got my ride back!

So happy to see my ride when i reached the workshop.

But, same car, a little new look, slightly different feeling.

The garage sux at taking care of their customers' rides.

Had a few defects and damages caused by them. Felt so angry when i washed the car.

Going back to complaim tmr. Have to wait for them to work on my car AGAIN.

Hopefully this "car damage" issue can end quickly.....

Took a picture with Edmond's Red Picanto. Smaller ride, but on whole i believe his car is more expensive than mine. Ha. Sound system alone cost him $2600!

His car is going for competition on Sept. Cant believe it. Wonder when his car will appear in HOTSTUFF. haha

2008-03-18T13:57:00.006+08:00

Last Wed, 12/03/2008, was a terrible day.

It was raining like nobody's business.

i was driving along PIE with my wiper to top speed and frequency.

Lights on, fog lamp on, rear fog lamp on.

Then, a F**king Lancer in front braked. At first i tot he was only slowing down, but i was wrong.

His Car STOPPED in PIE, on the first lane.

i jammed my brakes...... ABS came in and i could not stop in time.

i slammed into his car.

I hate ABS.

Eventually, his damage was about 3 to 4k. and mine.... my bonnet dented. fixing my bonnet alone could easily cost me more than 1k.

He claimed me. haiz. How i hope someone else hit my car from behind as well.

jus my luck i believe.

Now, my car is in the garage while i am REALLY driving an R1.

Hope all this din happen......

2008-02-28T12:18:00.008+08:00

Yes! It finally came! Its Here!

Alpreza!

Here's some snap shots of it taken with bei's phone.

Hoping i could do more with it, but i have to control my spending now in order to save upn $$ to bring bei oversea.

Where shall we go? Dunno. Thinking. Considering. Wondering. Deciding.

Meanwhile i travel around Singapore.

2008-02-14T12:10:00.004+08:00

Boo.... Boo.....

i wanna bei to listen to these.

http://etrnl5lmbr.imeem.com/music/rzgRRgaS/shayne_ward_stand_by_me/

http://profile.imeem.com/c048fv/music/65-gXkMN/chris_brown_with_you/

Happy Valentines' Day bei!

i know that the life coming on is going be tough.

(bcos of a new baby due soon)

(and this baby has high $ consumption)

But i have faith that we can get thru together!

Today, i gave you the first flowers since we know each other.

Hope u like them!~

Boooooo...... Booooooo............

Cheerz!
Alpreza!!

2008-01-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a pub.... and i feel i MUST blog this at once!

Tonight, i went to eunice's small aunty's birthday party at a pub in Central Mall, together with eunice's family. (Yes you are rite, it's Her FAMILY!) first time i ever went to a pub with my girlfriend's family. OMG i can't believe it.

At first, Eunice start playing a game of pool with Jeanice, then my hands got itchy. So i asked if eunice wanna play with me too. But after i break the balls, eunice passed the cue to her DAD! I'm playing pool with her DAD!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!! We carried on the game and eventually, Uncle Victor lost because he accidentally pocketed the black ball. (He played really well!!) i was so so paiseh to 'win' the game. My whole heart felt so heavy after the game. In fact, i feel that he played could have win the game.

After the game, we were at our table. i finished my drink. When i was refilling my drink, i kind of feel that Uncle Victor wanna give a cheers for the game by hitting my glass with his. ( i kind of notice this by his tilting of his glass. Can't confirm if he really wanna hit my glass but i just guessed). So while having this feeling, i continued pouring the martel and mixer. As a result, i din return the 'knock" on his glass. When i finished pouring my drink, he already placed his glass down. So sad. I should had just hit his glass with my glass of pure martel and drink!!!!! Why i so stupid!!!!

After that, i felt uneasy. Just feel like blaming myself! Haiz. I asked myself if i should just lift my glass and hit his glass. But i just have the feeling that its going to be very weird for me to be so initiative to hit his glass. So i chose not to.

Eventually, i told myself, if i don hit his glass NOW, i will regret my whole life. Thus after SO MUCH gathering of my courage, i lifted my glass, hit his glass and said: "for the game just now". He appreciated it by hitting my glass and smile. His simple smile means SO SO MUCH to me!

My heart lightened.

I really really enjoyed this night. Though i know this doesn't means much, but at least to me, it's worth my life!

Hope this is the first step to breaking the 'BARRIER'........

2007-12-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

recently, i browsed thru friendster. Realised that some of my friends i used to hanged out together are having so much fun. haha. seems like im getting old for fun?? i see people going places, taking lots of pix, going wake boarding...etc....

so fun....

i feel that bei is getting boring of me. i seems to become more and more boring for her. looks like i turning her life into a boring life. shit.

maybe i should wake up and do something about it... try to make your life more exciting.... hmmm... yes...

sorry bei....

2007-12-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

recently, i felt really low. no money.

made her feel why i USED to be rich, and now.....

she aint in good mood recently due to financial issues.

cant help but thinking why am i making her feel this way.

there is really nothing i can do?

i agree that i haven been buying anything for her....

how i wish i could give her a surprise gift....

but, till now, NOTHING.....

all this aint what i used to be....

i used to pamper, but now, i am down till the point where i cant do anything to save what i missed....

i'm really sorry....

i'm so helpless now.....

looks like i should get myself into a very serious self reflection.....

i hate myself....

when will the suffering i am giving end????

2007-11-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

i am so so so so so poor now!!!!

why did i end up like this man!

my god, think i must start ordering cow grass every day.

Jesus Christ! Monkey Balls!

i think the only person to suffer aint me alone.

Bei bei too.....

Sorry bei...

2007-11-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

Thomas and Baoqiang's birthday at Fish & Co. @ IMM

PK, Bei and 三大 @ Halloween Pat's Birthday At Amber 21
Halloween @ Zouk
I think thats me

Me and Bei ready for Halloween
A Very Special Day for me!----thanks Bei

2007-11-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

hey hey, its been so so so so lonngg since my last entry.
For those who think i had problem with my bei, sorry to disppoint, we are cool!

so many things past since the last entry.

good and bad.

too much to explain.

for now, suddenly dunno what to say.

enjoy some of the pic i post then~!

Cheerz

2007-06-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

i wanted to tell the truth.

but when the truth is told, no body believe it.

she wanted the truth, i gave her, but she cant take it.

wanted me to jus admit my mistakes and apologise.

apologzing is easy. admitting is easy. but the FACT is, i have NEVER did it.

truth is i NEVER lie.

how can i admit my mistake when i REALLY REALLY din do it?

if she jus wants me to admit to nothing and apologise, i cant do it.

i really hope i can jus apologise and everything will be back to normal, but i really din do anything unfaithful to her.

I REALLY din.

oh GOD, please help me clear this.

today, she sms me she HATE me, it truely hurts my heart to the CORE........

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2007-05-28T00:57:00.001+08:00

think my blog has too little pics.

so i randomly add some.....

2007-05-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

Went home today.

realied that i havent been going homw for some time.

had dinner with dad and baby.

first time baby had dinner with daddy. excited. hee

also the first time baby met my sis.

though it was jus a short moment at my place, i really hope i will be able to bring baby to my place often. want her to feel confortable in my place with my family.

shall wait for the next visit to my place. :)

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i think i am no longer a BB Blogger, but a Hougang blogger soon.

wahaha

2007-05-28T00:43:00.000+08:00

been so long since i last posted.

currently, i am serving my vacational attachment in BMTC

actually, i kind of like it there. life there is jus so relaxing. fellow PCs are such fun people to work with. OC is such a nice person and my SGTs, they rocks. recruits there are a funny bunch of monkeys. haha.

too bad, i will be leaving there soon and go into a brand new working environment for my industrial attachment. haiz. don really like to adapt to a new environment. but, no choice. hopefully after i change a new environment, my baby don have to suffer with me. who knows the working environment might not be so nice, working hours don permit me to see my baby much... :(

for now, i got to enjoy every moment i can with her....

2007-05-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

08th May

today was the day i wen back for my vacational attachment.

Quite lost

however, i was sent to Hawk Coy. Perfect. Cos a friend of mine is in the coy already. Best of all, i know the OC too. wahaha.

went home to take my stuff in the evening.

09th May

i overslept!

i woke up late, then i had to sms my OC to tell him that i overslept. he was kind enough to tell me: u can either take a MC or come in later.

eventually, i took MC.

so i was with baby the whole day.

at night we went to zouk (thoygh its mambo, i can still find the joy somehow with baby around)

(excited that i will be receiving my pay at 2330) i went to the atm and realised that my pay wasnt in.

it spoilt my night.

to make things worst, i suddenly felt a sudden rush of tiredless.

eventually, i went back at around 3 plus.

10th May

Today i thought i will be able to wake up earlier to report for work.

who knows,i still overslept. (with the help 4 alarm clocks) wahaha

reached camp abit late, but still okie. OC never say much...

upon reaching the site of Hawk sit test, i was told that i am going over to jaguar coy tmr.

gonna enjoy my stay. no matter what.

eventually, i get to see baby at night.

so happy.

but guess what, i am going straight into Jaguar Coy's field camp tmr!!!!

OMG.

that means weekend no book to see baby...

super sad.......

Albert Out.

2007-05-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

next week, i going back to serve my regular term for the holiday.
initially i was wondering where AOMC will post me to...
when i finally receive the posting letter, i had mixed feeling.
i am posted to BMTC.

i called up my regular friend and ask him where he was posted. and he is posted there too.
he is already serving now as he study in SMU where his exams ended earlier than mine.
he told me that he was posted there as a PC.
my first reaction was the same as his... a regular GUARDS officer posted to be a BMTC PC!!

wat the hell.... (on top of that, we stayed in the west area)

my mixed feelings:
excited as i am able to serve as a PC. always wanted to be a PC.
low morale as that will mean lots of travelling and not much time for my baby....

really wanna spend more time with her, but i doubt it is possible.

for now, i can only hope the life therecan be more flexible.

meanwhile, i can only hope for our oversea trip in late may.

2007-05-03T00:29:00.000+08:00

today, i finished my 4th paper.
can consider it as the only only paper i am confident to pass.
still one last paper on fri.
don have a good feeling for this paper.

pray pray....

today, baby going to fall sick.
had a flu and about to go down on fever soon.
really don wish to see her sick.
i wish to see her smile everyday.
enjoying every laughter with her now

pray pray...again...

2007-04-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

Started this blog today when i am suppose to be studying for my paper.

Not the rite thing to do.

But who cares.

wanted to create a blog quite some time back. but always don have the chance to.

finally, i created one and i dunno what to write and post.

Omg. think i jus need help in this.

Baby dear, we can share our pictures in here already! ---- please do tell me how to do more with this blog ha

2007-04-30T01:13:00.000+08:00

To start off with this blog, i think i jus add a few pictures to it.

Enjoy...

Me acting cool..like shit

how about this?

To all, she is taken!

by me of cos!

Taken before we are together.